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Little_Fire_Fairy
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Name: Aini aka Angela
Country: United States
State: Kansas
Metro: Wichita
Birthday: 1/7/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: archery, LOTR, horses, fire, anime, swords, and just weapons of all sorts...hehe shinys.., elven, FENCING!!
Expertise: archery, LOTR, horsebackriding, and fencing
Message: message me
AIM:  LitlFireFairy
MSN: usaarcher
ICQ:  ICQ...hmm, never heard of this one either..
Yahoo:  usaarcher88
Jabber: what the bloody hell is Jabber??
Member Since:
3/13/2005
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| im gunna miss my good ole Max, he was a good car.....but i cant afford
ta fix him, so *sigh* thursday i traded him in ta chris(a
mechanic i used ta work for) for a little 92 geo storm its a great
little car, and get this there is NOTHING wrong with it. its great, i
finally have a car again that i dont have ta fix to drive it. its
so nice having a car again, now i can actually go out and find a job
without having to get a ride everywhere, and Jose doesnt have to ride
my bike ta work and freeze. but dammit, its not as fast as Max,
and its an automatic, but hey, it drives, and theres nothing wrong with
it, so im gunna just have ta deal with it, lol.
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| la la la la la, life is good. ^-^
.............yea, dont ask. lol. life is good except for the bills and
sometimes the job, but its all good and part of life. i just wish i
could have one full half a day(the half im not asleep, lol) completely
without stress, but thats not possible, there are always a few moments
of stress in there somedays, no matter how well your days is going,
lol. and yes, if you cant tell, i had a very good day today, i
came home after work, curled up to Jose and went to sleep, got up,
spent time with jose, just hangin out, went to fencing and had fun,
caught up with an old friend Garrison, watched a movie "The Condemed"
which was very good, and now i am obviously posting on here and getting
ready to go to bed, considering its 6 in the morning, but thats ok, i
work third shift, lol, normally im not getting off work for another
hour, or a little more, lol. *hugs* and goodnight all, or good morning,
whichever, lol ^-^
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| well, me and Jose talked that night, and we worked things out, and life is much
better again. today i got a lot of things done, finally! like taking my
car to the shop, and soon it is going to be fixed!! im so excited, and
just in time for winter. it really sucks riding your bike when it is
less than 50 degrees out, to and from work. especially with a
brand new cartilage piercing, well, i got it last tuesday, so a week
old now. ill have to put pics up later. well, time to take a nap before going to work.
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| *sigh* so much as happened since i have last written. so much of my life has changed. where to begin......
well, me and travis are getting a divorce...to make a long story short,
me and him had been having a few problems, and had been growing farther
and farther appart. we moved out of his dads place into our own duplex
jan 26th, after that was when we started having problems, and arguing
ALL the time, and late may Jose, one of travis's friends moved in with
us till he could get his own place. at least that was the orignal
plan. i got a job at mcdonalds with Jose, and i got to know Jose
more and more, and i started to fall in love with him. travis noticed.
i admit it, i cheated on travis with Jose. i did. Jose was being
everything travis was when we first got together, in fact, more. the
only thing was that Jose smokes pot. well, i later found out that
travis had lied to me about him quitting too, he still had once in a
while. but anyways, we all three moved into a much bigger duplex June
30th. and July 25th was when travis found out that i had been cheating
on him, and told me we were getting a divorce. and sept 22 me and jose
moved into our own appt. and travis moved to missouri with his sister.
jose had been making a point of always doing what he says he is going
to do, and never lying to me. but now a couple of things have happened,
and now i dont know what to think. i am feeling trapped, alone, and
betrayed...again.. and i thought i would never feel this way with jose,
like i did with travis. i miss the old days in clearwater, i miss the
carefree times, i miss..... i dont know what i miss....i miss being
happy.....really happy.....in fact, i cant even remember what really
truely happy feels like. i dont know what would make me happy.
travis has said he wants me back...after he said he would never trust
me, and that we couldnt work out, and now he tells me that if me and
jose dont work out, his door is always open. and thats really messin
with me. dammit....i dont know what to think anymore, and once again, i
dont know whats going to happen. and i hate it.
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| ya know.....i kinda miss clearwater.....i dont really have any true
friends here....just people i know and like, all the people i know
everything about, trust completely, the people i can just walk into
their house without even a knock, the people i used to randomly go
anywhere with and talk about anything. and it didnt matter. sure, i
have friends here, i guess, but nothing like i did in clearwater.
when i am sitting around here, i look at the clock and hey, its after
3, time to go over to sheba's house! .......wait....*sigh* i cant. its
too far away now. i miss you guys, mark, sheba, and even you
jeff. i miss running everyday for cross country and track.
hell.....i think i even miss school! yes, me who hated school.....i
miss it. *sigh*
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